Do not give your past the power to define your future.”~ Unknown
I only remember her face, not her name, so I will call her Jane. She looked like a Jane. When I first met Jane she greeted me with a glimpse of a smile; that would be the most emotion she ever showed me. I would be OK with that because Jane changed my world.
The afternoon I first met Jane, I left work early. We had a 5:30 pm appointment, and I didn’t want to be late. I wasn’t thrilled to meet Jane, I was very reluctant and nervous, however, I wanted to respect her time so I didn’t want to be late. It was a sunny fall afternoon, and I took the 20-minute drive in silence, that’s how I knew I was really nervous. The drive entire I wondered what she looked liked. We spoke briefly on the phone, but I could not begin to assign her facial features based on our short conversation.
I arrived at the address, parked, and stayed in my car. I was about 10 minutes early and sat there for nine minutes before getting out of the car. I was nervous. I didn’t know what to expect. I wasn’t completely sure why I was even doing this. I wasn’t sure what I’d say to Jane, or what she would say to me. I felt so uncertain in this moment, but I was here so I had to at least meet Jane. Right?
I found the door, it was red. The blinds in the window looked a little tattered. I immediately thought this was a mistake, because, well her blinds were tattered. Yes, I judge people based on how the blinds look from their window. I always have and probably always will. I rang the bell and I waited. I rang the bell again and waited. I was growing impatient with Jane and her tattered blinds. I rang the bell one more time, and she opened the door right away. She was old. Her face was soft yet wrinkled and her hair was gray and frizzy, somehow the tattered blinds fit. She invited me in, and I stood staring at this older lady with old hair and an old face, thinking THIS is my therapist? Continue reading “Her name was Jane”