“ I think I’m depressed”
“What makes you say that?”
“Well, I am sad all of the time, I don’t want to do sh*t, and this isn’t like me”
This is a conversation I had with myself a few years ago. Yeah, this was one of those conversations you have in your head, but some of questions you answer out loud. For months I knew something wasn’t right because I’d been feeling down. I’d have periods that I felt OK, but my overall mood for months was sad. Outside of being sad, I just wasn’t feeling like myself. I was irritable, and always tired (more than usual). I would either overeat, or not eat at all and I had difficulty focusing on my job. For months I felt like I couldn’t get a grip on my life and I began to feel the affects. I gained weight, I quit pursuing my Master’s degree, lost my desire to go out with friends and I eventually got fired for my low performance.
What brought on my depression?: The short and simple answer is I was trying to handle all that life was throwing at me on my own. (This is my opinion before therapy) What I learned in therapy was all that I had been through led me to believe certain things about myself. In addition to learning how to ask for help, I had to unlearn a lot of shit, and learn a new way to look at myself and how I responded to life. Continue reading “SPEAK OUT: Christina shares her story about Depression.”